I've been living in blissful ignorance of the fact it's winter, and I should be having a cold or two.
I am now feeling pretty sorry for myself. I think it is a case of me feeling rundown, and my body trying to get me to calm down and de-stress. I have my trial shift for Wagamama today, and have one of the solos on Sunday- very bad timing!!!
I am sure I can woman up and do the wagamama shift fine.
The thing I am most pleasantly surprised about is my brother. I was feeling very weak last night, and went to bed about 6 (I haven't been sleeping well, so trying to catch up on sleep!). The cat came to join me- I still think they have a sixth sense to tell who is ill- and then dad went out. Dan gave me his blanket, and spent most of his time giving me cuddles. Eventually I didn't have the energy, and he wandered off to bed.
This morning, when I came down the stairs, I asked if Dan could give me a hand with breakfast. He firstly gave me a big hug, sorted my breakfast out, and got me a cup of tea.
It's not that I don't think he is lovely, I know he is, it's more so the fact he never made a fuss, he thought of things himself that might help, and was so thoughtful.
He may test my patience to the limit, but when it comes down to it, to me, he is the best brother in the world :)
Showing posts with label jobs. Show all posts
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Saturday, 11 February 2012
Friday, 20 January 2012
Am I finally maturing...?!?
Today has been a weird mix, but mainly full of mature, adult things that needed to be done.
I was applying for jobs this morning, and I really am starting to feel disheartened. The jobs I found wouldn't give me an interview, and the others are hard for me to get to.
It definitely is hard for young people these days. We couldn't get a job at first, because we didn't have enough qualifications. Now that we have qualifications, we are over-qualified. We also have to fight against mature, experienced people who have lost their jobs.
There definitely is a plus side to this- I had my interview with Halfords today. After working for Lush, it felt quite weird to have a formal interview again! I thought it went quite well though, but who knows? I definitely tried my hardest, and that is all that I can do. Hopefully I get a phone call from them soon :)
In the evening I helped out at my old youth club, which is always really fun. I get to put the volunteering onto my CV, which is always a help, but I really do it for the kids. I always really enjoyed going to youth club at the end of the week, and I do feel that it is a nice way for me to give back. The kids are also really nice, and I think they see me as someone that they can talk to, but hopefully someone that they should respect. Without sounding arrogant, I think the kids enjoy it when I'm there too, and one of the parents said that their child only likes it when I'm there. It's quite daunting, but it helps keep me motivated to go and help.
I think children do pick up on whether people want to be there or not. Bless him, but I can tell that the leader has been coerced into running the youth club. The kids have no rapport with the leader, and they want to constantly do something, not just sit around and do nothing every other week. I am in the unique position that the kids do talk to me, and it is difficult, as I do agree that they want something to do, but it's not my place to say anything, as I know the response would be "well you run it then".
On to lighter subjects eh!
I'm am so excited for tomorrow, firstly because I will be seeing Bethan, (aka BOOM buddy) and I haven't seen her in ages! Secondly, we are going to London, to see Nigel Kennedy play the four seasons. For me, he is the master of those works, and to hear it live is going to be EPIC.
It was great to chat to boom to sort out arrangements for tomorrow, but to also sort out where we're going to meet, what we're going to do, and working through all the underground closures, it is nice to sort out the nitty gritty details, rather than leaving the job to someone else. I even thought of going to see some exhibitions...scary eh! Knowing us though, I think we'll slip into our usual chatter about random crap and de-mature pretty quickly!
Fingers crossed we will, all this maturity from me is a bit freaky. x
I was applying for jobs this morning, and I really am starting to feel disheartened. The jobs I found wouldn't give me an interview, and the others are hard for me to get to.
It definitely is hard for young people these days. We couldn't get a job at first, because we didn't have enough qualifications. Now that we have qualifications, we are over-qualified. We also have to fight against mature, experienced people who have lost their jobs.
There definitely is a plus side to this- I had my interview with Halfords today. After working for Lush, it felt quite weird to have a formal interview again! I thought it went quite well though, but who knows? I definitely tried my hardest, and that is all that I can do. Hopefully I get a phone call from them soon :)
In the evening I helped out at my old youth club, which is always really fun. I get to put the volunteering onto my CV, which is always a help, but I really do it for the kids. I always really enjoyed going to youth club at the end of the week, and I do feel that it is a nice way for me to give back. The kids are also really nice, and I think they see me as someone that they can talk to, but hopefully someone that they should respect. Without sounding arrogant, I think the kids enjoy it when I'm there too, and one of the parents said that their child only likes it when I'm there. It's quite daunting, but it helps keep me motivated to go and help.
I think children do pick up on whether people want to be there or not. Bless him, but I can tell that the leader has been coerced into running the youth club. The kids have no rapport with the leader, and they want to constantly do something, not just sit around and do nothing every other week. I am in the unique position that the kids do talk to me, and it is difficult, as I do agree that they want something to do, but it's not my place to say anything, as I know the response would be "well you run it then".
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| Typical picture of Boom and I. |
I'm am so excited for tomorrow, firstly because I will be seeing Bethan, (aka BOOM buddy) and I haven't seen her in ages! Secondly, we are going to London, to see Nigel Kennedy play the four seasons. For me, he is the master of those works, and to hear it live is going to be EPIC.
It was great to chat to boom to sort out arrangements for tomorrow, but to also sort out where we're going to meet, what we're going to do, and working through all the underground closures, it is nice to sort out the nitty gritty details, rather than leaving the job to someone else. I even thought of going to see some exhibitions...scary eh! Knowing us though, I think we'll slip into our usual chatter about random crap and de-mature pretty quickly!
Fingers crossed we will, all this maturity from me is a bit freaky. x
Monday, 16 January 2012
AUDITION!!!/North of London Syndome
Yesterday, as you could probably tell, I was having a right tantrum. Today just seems to bring amazing opportunities my way.
I finished an application for Halfords, handed it in, and got a phone call at about 5pm asking me for an interview on Friday, (thank you Neil for putting in a good word!!). I have applied to go touring with a indie/gypsy band round the UK and mainland Europe, which will probably include Austria, Germany, and Switzerland. For me this is an opportunity for me to see the world, (well, some of Europe at least). I have been to France, the Canary Islands, and Zante, and I am so desperate to visit more- and my orchestral director in Chichester is fine with it, which means I won't be in the doghouse before I start university again! I got a message from them back asking me to email them, and I've got a flipping audition!!! AHHH!!! :D
I have applied for the pageant, as it isn't exactly going to be bad for my self esteem (and I get a sash :D).
A resolution -which is admittedly very late- that I have made today is to swot up on my geography. Yesterday I was talking to my friend from Manchester, and I really showed how bad I am at geography north of London. I like to call this 'North of London Syndrome', commonly referred to as being a southerner. I know where virtually everything is south of London. I even know the London Underground, but you take me past London and I get all confused :S
I always thought it was just quite cute and nice to live in ignorance of northern geography. Lately I've been feeling like a moron. I have started my studying, (I can hear Jaymie saying "Praise the Lord!") and now know where some of the counties are, and realised that Cumbria is a county, not a city!
Slowly but surely eh...x
I finished an application for Halfords, handed it in, and got a phone call at about 5pm asking me for an interview on Friday, (thank you Neil for putting in a good word!!). I have applied to go touring with a indie/gypsy band round the UK and mainland Europe, which will probably include Austria, Germany, and Switzerland. For me this is an opportunity for me to see the world, (well, some of Europe at least). I have been to France, the Canary Islands, and Zante, and I am so desperate to visit more- and my orchestral director in Chichester is fine with it, which means I won't be in the doghouse before I start university again! I got a message from them back asking me to email them, and I've got a flipping audition!!! AHHH!!! :D
I have applied for the pageant, as it isn't exactly going to be bad for my self esteem (and I get a sash :D).
A resolution -which is admittedly very late- that I have made today is to swot up on my geography. Yesterday I was talking to my friend from Manchester, and I really showed how bad I am at geography north of London. I like to call this 'North of London Syndrome', commonly referred to as being a southerner. I know where virtually everything is south of London. I even know the London Underground, but you take me past London and I get all confused :S
I always thought it was just quite cute and nice to live in ignorance of northern geography. Lately I've been feeling like a moron. I have started my studying, (I can hear Jaymie saying "Praise the Lord!") and now know where some of the counties are, and realised that Cumbria is a county, not a city!
Slowly but surely eh...x
Thursday, 12 January 2012
Don't you just love a positive, productive day?
I love having a productive day. I have nearly finished my UCAS application, (which I thought was to be sent today, but realised it's by Sunday, thank goodness!) I've been looking for jobs again, so hopefully having my temporary Lush job should look really good on my CV- Lush has a good reputation for customer service. I have also decided to do the pageant in the end :D I think that I need something out of my comfort zone, and I need a bit more confidence. It also gives me a new goal with my weight loss and motivation. Just need some new photos to send off and I'll be ready!
I have been looking at some of my photos from 2011, and though it is not a drastic change, I can tell that I am losing weight. My oblique muscles were aching earlier this week, (a good sign) and I seem to have lost weight from my back, but seem to of kept my boobs! Result! I also was able to buy a size lower and fit into it as well, which was very exciting :D
I can feel that my confidence is starting to grow- at an 18th birthday party Saturday, I had so much fun dancing both bollywood and chart dancing- after a slightly shaky bollywood start- and as the evening went on (and more wine was consumed) I was feeling unstoppable, and didn't care whether I looked like a complete idiot. Yes, it may of been down to the drink, but who cares? I was confident, and I haven't felt that in a very long time.
I have also found the awesomeness which is anime! A lushie friend of mine introduced Ghost in the Shell to me, and I love it. It may not have plus size females in there, but the 'major' is the strongest of them all, in command, and kicks arse! It is good to see a truly strong female main character in a series. It defies the characterisation of women being bitches, using sex to get what they want, or on the other side of the scale, women who need a man to function. We need more strong women in the media, as most shows depict a strong woman as a bitch, which frankly is not helping at all.
What I'm trying to say very inarticulately, is that all these little positive things are helping me be more confident, more comfortable in my own skin, and who I want to be, and that can only be a good thing. x
P.S I want the major's purple hair.
I have been looking at some of my photos from 2011, and though it is not a drastic change, I can tell that I am losing weight. My oblique muscles were aching earlier this week, (a good sign) and I seem to have lost weight from my back, but seem to of kept my boobs! Result! I also was able to buy a size lower and fit into it as well, which was very exciting :D
I can feel that my confidence is starting to grow- at an 18th birthday party Saturday, I had so much fun dancing both bollywood and chart dancing- after a slightly shaky bollywood start- and as the evening went on (and more wine was consumed) I was feeling unstoppable, and didn't care whether I looked like a complete idiot. Yes, it may of been down to the drink, but who cares? I was confident, and I haven't felt that in a very long time.
I have also found the awesomeness which is anime! A lushie friend of mine introduced Ghost in the Shell to me, and I love it. It may not have plus size females in there, but the 'major' is the strongest of them all, in command, and kicks arse! It is good to see a truly strong female main character in a series. It defies the characterisation of women being bitches, using sex to get what they want, or on the other side of the scale, women who need a man to function. We need more strong women in the media, as most shows depict a strong woman as a bitch, which frankly is not helping at all.
P.S I want the major's purple hair.
Wednesday, 19 October 2011
Never giving up job hopes
I have been going through mixed emotions about jobs at the moment. I have a wonderful job at lush, (with my first shift tomorrow!!) but it is only a temporary Christmas job. The worrying reality is that I need a permanent job. BBC 3 - Up for Hire is a really good programme, looking at youth unemployment, and helping with skills needed to attain these important jobs. It has given me hope, inspiration and determination to hold my head up high, and look for those jobs. It has also helped inspire me to focus on my classical music career. A Career in Music has a really good article, helping people who want to get involved in the music business. It gives me great ideas to get work experience whilst I am at university, making great use of reading weeks that I would have during my future stay at Chichester University.
I am now going to use my time wiser when I am at home. Watch the programmes that I love, (loose women..) but look for jobs, and not just give up. Send out letters to top local orchestra's to ask if I could sit in rehearsals. Get involved with as many orchestra's as possible. Work hard to get to a good standard. Look for jobs that will keep me going, and eventually fill out my UCAS application.
Lots to do! x
I am now going to use my time wiser when I am at home. Watch the programmes that I love, (loose women..) but look for jobs, and not just give up. Send out letters to top local orchestra's to ask if I could sit in rehearsals. Get involved with as many orchestra's as possible. Work hard to get to a good standard. Look for jobs that will keep me going, and eventually fill out my UCAS application.
Lots to do! x
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