Saturday, 28 January 2012

Getting the gloves back on :D

Ever since was a little girl, I have always spoken my mind. As I got older and wiser, I got into less trouble about it. I have always been proud of the fact that I speak my mind, because it is braver than bitching, and a problem gets resolved quicker. I admit, I do occasionally rant and bitch, everyone does it, but I don't like to make a habit out of it. If I had an issue with someone, I prefer to speak out.
I then went to uni. I was in an environment where bitchiness was the norm. I started to find I was losing my bluntness in the waves of bitching. I always thought I matured at university. In some ways I did. I learnt that you have to be careful with money, and how to depend on myself.
One thing I have been wanting to change after uni, was to go back to my blunt, 'say it like it is' behaviour. I have been trying for a couple of months now, and had my big break-through last night.
A couple of months ago, a lady made a comment (subtly) about my weight, and what I was putting into my mouth. Considering I have been losing weight, been eating healthily, and went to the gym that very day in preperation, I found the whole situation very rude. I was so surprised by the comment, I didn't say anything. Ever since then, I have been wishing that I could of said something to her. Last night, I was sitting with her at a meal, and she was talking about defending herself against people's comments, and said politely, that she may not of realised it, but she upset me a while ago. She apologised straight away afterwards. I accepted the apology, but stating to please be careful in what you say to me next time.
I probably should not of done it in a public place, in front of people, (even though virtually no-one heard about the incident) but it was the first time I have stood up for myself again after uni.
Also, after posting about the bitchy Canterbury folk, I was getting 'anon' comments, trying to be derogitary. My new strength has made me realise that the comments mean nothing. As long as I know in myself that they are doing it to get attention and a rise out of me, it doesn't matter what they say. All I do is delete the comment, and then forget about it.
I am getting stronger and stronger every day. 
The world better watch out, the old Palm is back in business! :D

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