He is Back!

My sailor came back this weekend. I was so excitable all day to see him. It was just so amazing to have a normal date night with him yesterday evening. Be able to have a proper conversation. Seeing him again makes it worth him being away for that time. It was fun for me to show the work I have done to my home as well. I'm hoping to get more done whilst he is away. I'm starting to get all these amazing ideas for my home so it's fun to be able to start putting them into action.

My sailor also got me a gift from his travels. He knows I love a good quote, and got me this book. Definitely gave me motivation to put my inspirational quotes up on the wall. Now to decide where to put them. That can be another task while he's away.
This weekend has made me realise one thing though. Being in the military and having civilian friends is hard. You want to meet up with them while you are back, but plans don't always work out the way you want. You can miss important things in their life.
All I would say to civilian friends, is please know that they do care about you. Just because they aren't always able to be there or message doesn't mean they don't want to. It's unfortunately part of the job. Also, when they are home and want to see you, please do what you can. You get to see your other friends all the time. Military ones aren't always there. I'm not saying stop all your arranged plans for them. But if they want to hang out, please do what they can. Their time at home is precious, and if they want to hang out with you then you are a priority in their life.
If it's only for a day, show that to them too.

Coping with Mental Health

If I am being completely honest with myself, I have been struggling with my mental health since before Christmas. My anxiety was back with heated avengence. This followed after I lost my job with severe depression. I got put on tablets to help, but they gave me bad headaches. I then got put on other tablets. They are starting to work. I'm being referred for high intensity CBT.
One of the best things though would have to be my best friend coming to see me this weekend. It was so refreshing. I got to show the work I have done to my flat, got the travel frames up, went to the cinema, had a girly night. Honestly one of the best weekends I have had in a while.
If you ever don't know what to do when your friend has mental health issues going on, do that. It is a blessing.

Also something that has really helped is to have a proper pamper. I have cleansed, toned, face mask, moisturised. I have had a bath with a bath bomb, salts, body scrub and body lotion. I feel so much calmer and relaxed. Giving yourself a pamper is definitely good for the soul. You are worth spending time over.
Whilst I am no closer to finding a job, I feel more positive. I have wonderful friends who care about me. I feel beautiful by spending time on myself. My sailor will be back in 5 days.
Life will get easier.

Big events and Valentine's Day

When you are with a forces man, you can't really have a love of special events.

My sailor is going away today, and missing out on probably all the special events coming up including two stag do's.

I now understand two things.

1. Why forces families can never guarantee that they will be able to do things.

2. With special occasions, the day itself isn't a massive thing.

Him not being here on Valentine's isn't a massive deal. I'm not a fan of Valentine's day anyway. (Although a bunch of flowers wouldn't have gone a miss lol!)

The time we spend together is what is important. You make it work. He is going to be away for his birthday, but going to try and make it as special as possible for him. He's away for family members birthdays. But that's where I come in, and make sure that I can make up for him not being there.

This whole navy girlfriend thing is a constant learning curve, but it'll get there. It feels so much easier him going away this time. I don't need him to be in constant contact with me. I am comfortable enough to know that he cares about me that I don't need to worry. He'll be back soon enough.
Time to enjoy my own company, and get some decorating done!
Anyone fancy helping me paint my walls? O:)