Frustrations vs Aled Jones...

I just seem to be surrounded by things that frustrate me at the moment. I saw that someone needed an alto for a choir tour to Israel. I knew I was the first person to apply, and asked for my experience. I got a reply nearly 12 hours later saying sorry but they chose someone else, sorry to of lead you on. I would of been perfect for the tour, and just can't seem to get any breaks.

I also got my results for my blood test. I have irregular hormone levels. The doctor tried to pin it of PCOS (polycystic ovary syndrome) and told me just to lose weight (she called me 'plumpalitious', which I also didn't appreciate very much), and she was going put me on diabetes drugs to help (having the hormonal imbalance of estrogen means losing weight is that much harder. Great). I had to tell her for the third time in a week that I have already lost over a stone, that I am eating healthily and exercising. I then had to explain for the fifth time that my symptoms do not match PCOS. She went through the symptoms-that I have none of- and eventually conceded that it didn't sound like PCOS, and referred me to gyno.

I hate the fact that because I am overweight, that she automatically pinned my problems on it, and ignored my symptoms, focussing on my weight. I also hate that she constantly makes little jabs at me about my weight. After her sterling performance, it may of given me the push to change surgeries. Why should I be treated like a leaper over my weight, especially as I am doing something about it?? I can tell that she has obviously got fed up of the situation, hence the referral, just to get rid of me and my problems, and maybe to prove me wrong. I know she knows her stuff, but I know my body. 

I went to sign in today, and unfortunately the buses were running late, so got there late to my appointment. The lady who I saw rudely said that in future, I don't want you to come in late to sign in. When I explained my situation with the bus, she calmed down, but it was all to do about the fact she wanted to go out for lunch. If anything, I am normally 10 minutes early to my sign ins, and they normally make me late. It is just so ironic that the one time I was late they bring it up. I was made to feel that because I have to sign on, that I am stupid, and someone who doesn't care. Of course I want work! I wouldn't go to so much effort to get a job if I didn't want one. I wouldn't of got a job and be waiting for my training if I didn't want a job! I will just focus on the really nice man I saw before the annoying woman. 

Must not mention 'walking in the air' .

It did look up today though. I had the first Songs of Praise recording. Yes it was a bit repetitive at times, but overall it was done professionally, and with good humour. Aled Jones will be there tomorrow for the second recording. I am determined to get a photo with him. That'll certainly cheer me up a bit!!x