One step at a time

As you know from my earlier blog posts, I had been finding it really difficult to get back to the gym. 

Thanks to some help from my friends Danny and Abi, I am back on track to where I want to be.

I had my weigh in today- I was pretty nervous, I hadn't had a proper weigh and measure for a while, so it felt like my first one all over again. I had nothing to worry about, I've lost 8lbs and 5 1/4 inches! That is such a big step forward for me, having the feeling that I really am getting somewhere. I have some serious determination, and my fighting spirit back, and it's seeping into other areas of my life- I had work after the gym today, and I am really enjoying it. 

Hopefully this weight coming off will help with my issues of self worth. If I am being honest I don't really think much of myself, I worry so much about what people think of me, I get paranoid, and when I look in the mirror most days, I feel ugly, and disgusted by what I see. I know that I have to focus on the good things about me, but it's hard. When you are at that low point, you can't see the good in you, and you can't believe what others say to you either. If I heard one of my friends say this to me, I would show them this picture. Maybe I should listen to myself more often. 

Before I open another tin of worms, I should stop. So on that rather random note, I wish you all a very good week. x